43 ~ Greater schemes ~

*** This post was inspired by another fighter who posed a question inquiring:

What defines you?

Leaving aside illnesses.

I’ve joined the 2 – life prior to falling ill & after.

Absolutely nothing to boast about! Instead, a reminder to all fellow buddies that when chronic illness grips & takes over a major part of our lives..

Focus turns only onto health & treatments etc which has a first place undoubtedly.

Sometimes as the duration prolongs.. We tend to forget who we actually are.

We forget our identity & the fact that we still have capabilities by which we can continue contributing to society

There holds much more to us than inwardly debilitating riddling diseases..

Where we were before

Where we are now

Where will be in the future…

Are all a part of fates greater schemes

Born & bred in South Africa ๐Ÿ‡ฟ๐Ÿ‡ฆ

Servant to a loving & merciful master

Prophetical traditional follower

Youngest daughter๐Ÿ‘ช

Little sister & sister in law to the spouse’s of 3 brothers + 2 sisters ๐Ÿ‘ธ

Aunt to 13 nieces who make life busier, funnier ๐Ÿ˜‚

& 4 nephews whos top hobby is soccer โšฝ

Being of assistance to whomsoever I can makes me happier.

Enthusiastic book reader ๐Ÿ“–

Hues of torquise blues are my favorite colors, red included in winter because it’s warmer.. resembles the heat of fire

Possess a daring nature

Mother earth observer๐ŸŒ„๐ŸŒƒโฒ๐ŸŒˆโ›ˆโ˜๐ŸŒ™๐ŸŒž

Pet keeper๐Ÿ”๐Ÿ“๐Ÿค๐Ÿฆ๐Ÿ ๐ŸŸ

An outdoor passionist of all things related & ardent fan of wild life in Kruger ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿฏ๐Ÿ…

Awesome it is to be a game ranger

Camper who loves adventures

Sea ๐Ÿš collector

Carefree veil wearer

Hijaab (the veil) is my choice & crown ๐Ÿ‘‘ not a limiting factor nor clothing enforced by an oppressor

Hard catcher ๐Ÿ˜œ

Aromatherapy inhaler which is an all time soul enhancer

Arabic poetry listener ๐ŸŽง๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ’ฟ๐ŸŽฅ

Biker ๐Ÿšต

Jogger๐Ÿƒ

Hiker๐Ÿšถ๐Ÿ‘ฃ

Cooker & Baker ๐Ÿž ๐Ÿฉ

Not much of a fruit eater ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ

Herbal tea drinker โ˜•.

Whilst a kid, mom & dad would say who is more fussier than her? ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™ˆ

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Celestial knowledge seeker

Under the shadow of an illustrious mentor.

Memorizer of a divine scripture = a musk carrier. It is my best comforter & director

Former teacher ๐ŸŽ“

Multi tasker, hands in all beneficial matters

Toiling to always become a better person I prefer.

Glad for everyone’s careers

Detest enviors.

Jealousy & cruelty I abhor

Qaulities of good character & humility, I adore!

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[ EVERY GRIM END IS MERELY A BEGINNING TO ANOTHER VAST JOURNEY OF DISCOVERY ]

In the oceans – through the waves ๐ŸŒŠ a figurative sailer โ›ต , surfer ๐Ÿ„ & swimmer ๐ŸŠ

Eager to unearth new treasures

Planter & gardener with green fingers ๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒฑ๐ŸŒฟ๐ŸŒธ๐ŸŒบ๐ŸŒท.

Chronic illness endurer ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ’Š๐Ÿ’‰โ™ฟ

When, to my own body I became a foreign invader

Since these past 2 years

I am a different viewer

Of the world which has become the canvas of a broader picture.

Currently a rare disease warrior dealing with congestive heart failure ๐Ÿ“ˆ๐Ÿ“‰

Requiring upright sleeping postures

Climb mount everest by having a shower ๐Ÿšฟ

Albeit, it definitely makes one feel nicer.

People say: You look fit as a fiddler

Most Drs assume: she’s a faker

Alas!!! If only they could see; Internally my body wreaks havoc to 1 of an only type complicated disaster.

Beware โš 

For me the simple pleasure of laughter is a hazardous danger

An angina trigger

Also causes me to gasp for air, heart beating faster, blood pressure dropping lower, finally fainting to the floor

Situations of extreme excitement or anger are not in my favor

But the weight of these challenges will not make me a permanent moper ๐Ÿ˜”

They are growth providers

When the attitude of gratitude is a determining & driving factor.

Beauty is scattered everywhere

Sometimes & some days it requires a search longer & harder.

Respiratory failure & partial heart attack survivor ๐Ÿฅ

Oxygen dependant leashed by a nasal cannula.

Rising & shining no matter the weather

Focusing on all that makes life brighter

Heartfelt writer ๐Ÿ“˜๐Ÿ“—โœ

Calligraphy artist in the maker with a god sent teacher โœ’๐Ÿ“ƒ

An avid_ink_slinger.

Future worrier? I’d not be, rather

Placing complete trust & reliance in the mightiest of powers

Letting the sparkle of faith shimmer ๐ŸŒŸ

Coerced into a souldier

Without a fully equipped team of drs I learnt to become my own savior

With the advice provided by senior figures

Who have become my medical guiders.

From every encounter i am aided to build higher.

Easier said than done, don’t care about the deserters

Never give up with the extended assistance of caregivers & supporters

Those rare & true souls who stick at our sides through thick & thin, are keeper’s

They care to recognize & gain an understanding of our conditions making these trials easier.

Oh Lord! Please shower upon them your choicest favors

For their selfless renders.

Become menders & lenders to one another’s shatters

Kindness amplifys the universe wider

An asset to the doer not only the reciever.

Stay far! Criticisers & judgers

We ain’t in need of unsolicited dictator’s.

My weapons are prayers

Effective hurdle killers ๐Ÿ”ซ

Don’t underestimate its power.

Amidst this combat there is no breather

But our inner core carries superpowers to continuing until whenever.

Lost near & dear loved ones? A seperation very bitter…

Let the tears stream in rivers

And rejoice knowing, In lofty heavens will we reunite again together.

Oh sad one! When the pain lingers deeper

Remember! It is a fleeting timer

Nothing remains forever

Besides majestic rewards in an eternal life yet to come, of which the mind cannot even wonder

Therein we will be pampered with unlimited measure

For this goal I desirously labour & pray to become a successful winner!!

A dreamer & striver to meet who should be my first lover prior to all others.

To him there is no matcher

May he accept my broken efforts & forgive my errors

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[ FIGHTER ]

Is my logo

Above the high & low tides that flow,

I shall row ๐Ÿšฃ

You may see me drown or sink during weak moments, but quitting?? No!

Leaving the past where it belongs, moving ahead, focusing on the present; always go.

Upon which shore shall I finally land? Not one of us know

Though, seeds of goodness and awareness i will continuously sow

Until the endmost…….

May our footsteps keep the earth aglow



12 Comments Add yours

  1. Hawabibi says:

    I think it needs a correction….not former teacher but amazing inspirational and talented teacher…the gift you gave to Atiyah is immeasurable.
    Also add bravest soul we came across.
    May you be blessed always
    Our prayers are with you always ๐Ÿ’๐ŸŒธ

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    1. Binti Mahmood says:

      I totally second this comment… You maybe not be in a virtual classroom teaching but in these few months that I’ve come to know you… You’ve taught me things for a life timeโœ”๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿค—

      Oh on a lighter side.. you forgot to add that one of your super abilities is to type super fast๐Ÿ˜„๐Ÿ˜‰…or maybe I’m just slow..lol๐Ÿ˜‚

      ุงุญุจูƒ ูŠุง ุงุฎุชูŠ ููŠ ุงู„ู„ู‡ ูƒุซูŠุฑุง ุฌุฏุง๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’™โค๐Ÿ’

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      1. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š Jazakillah Khair for those kind words too ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’– May it be accepted I.A.
        I wouldn’t have gotten to know the beautiful you had your invitation not came along to you graduation.. so who started the trail of good…๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜˜

        ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ Naahh you’re not slow at all!! We equal speed ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜…

        ุงุญุจูƒ ุงู„ุฐูŠ ุงุญุจุจุชู†ูŠ ู„ู‡ ุŒ ูˆุงุญุจูƒ ุงูŠุถุง ูƒุซูŠุฑุง ุฌุฏุง. ุญูŠุงูƒู… ุงู„ู„ู‡. ุงุฑุงูƒ ุชุนู„ู… ุฎูŠุฑุง ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘

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    2. Jazakillah Khair so much for those kind words ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š don’t deserve them ๐Ÿ™ˆ Atiyah was & always is a unique blessing sent in my life. The moments spent with her are cherished always & forever. The blue printed card she gave me on the day of her graduation is stuck as a constant reminder every day… Memories of her are scattered everywhere. May the Almighty forgive my shortcomings to her as a student that was placed in my trust. Always in my thoughts & prayers.. old students are gold & her parents who worked with me making the journey easier are just as admirable.. May you all be taken from strength to strength. Lots of love & prayers ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’–

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  2. Binti Mahmood says:

    Aameen Thummah Aameenโค๐Ÿ’™

    Awww๐Ÿค—….you always held a special place in my ๐Ÿ’™ and thoughts and more so since I found out that we share a very important and special link from a spiritual aspect๐ŸŒธbut I just couldn’t come into contact… Anyway God is the best of plannersโญ

    Aameen Thummah Aameen… May Allah Ta’ala bless you with the same๐Ÿ’™

    Lol I get help from my Mum and bros…my vocab is really limited๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™ˆ

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  3. muslimah8 says:

    AssalaamuAlaykum
    I hope you are well
    Could I please have your email address?

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    1. W.w.w. ุงู„ุญู…ุฏ ู„ู„ู‡ ุนู„ู‰ ูƒู„ ุญุงู„. Hope you are well too I.A. Sure by all means. kmjustwaxit@gmail.com

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    2. Can I help with something perhaps..

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  4. Ummi Abdullah says:

    ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’•

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  5. Dunno how come I never read this post b4… Loved it… My eye especially cought on the one part…
    Masha Allah, a ุญุงู…ู„ุฉ ุงู„ู‚ุฑุขู†…
    May Allah keep the Quran firmly embedded in your memory, heart and life and make it the joy and spring of your lifeโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ

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