43 ~ Greater schemes ~

*** This post was inspired by another fighter who posed a question inquiring:

What defines you?

Leaving aside illnesses.

I’ve joined the 2 – life prior to falling ill & after.

Absolutely nothing to boast about! Instead, a reminder to all fellow buddies that when chronic illness grips & takes over a major part of our lives..

Focus turns only onto health & treatments etc which has a first place undoubtedly.

Sometimes as the duration prolongs.. We tend to forget who we actually are.

We forget our identity & the fact that we still have capabilities by which we can continue contributing to society

There holds much more to us than inwardly debilitating riddling diseases..

Where we were before

Where we are now

Where will be in the future…

Are all a part of fates greater schemes

Born & bred in South Africa 🇿🇦

Servant to a loving & merciful master

Prophetical traditional follower

Youngest daughter👪

Little sister & sister in law to the spouse’s of 3 brothers + 2 sisters 👸

Aunt to 13 nieces who make life busier, funnier 😂

& 4 nephews whos top hobby is soccer ⚽

Being of assistance to whomsoever I can makes me happier.

Enthusiastic book reader 📖

Hues of torquise blues are my favorite colors, red included in winter because it’s warmer.. resembles the heat of fire

Possess a daring nature

Mother earth observer🌄🌃⏲🌈⛈☁🌙🌞

Pet keeper🐔🐓🐤🐦🐠🐟

An outdoor passionist of all things related & ardent fan of wild life in Kruger 🐾🐒🐯🐅

Awesome it is to be a game ranger

Camper who loves adventures

Sea 🐚 collector

Carefree veil wearer

Hijaab (the veil) is my choice & crown 👑 not a limiting factor nor clothing enforced by an oppressor

Hard catcher 😜

Aromatherapy inhaler which is an all time soul enhancer

Arabic poetry listener 🎧🎶💿🎥

Biker 🚵

Jogger🏃

Hiker🚶👣

Cooker & Baker 🍞 🍩

Not much of a fruit eater 🍌🍍

Herbal tea drinker ☕.

Whilst a kid, mom & dad would say who is more fussier than her? 😂🙈

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Celestial knowledge seeker

Under the shadow of an illustrious mentor.

Memorizer of a divine scripture = a musk carrier. It is my best comforter & director

Former teacher 🎓

Multi tasker, hands in all beneficial matters

Toiling to always become a better person I prefer.

Glad for everyone’s careers

Detest enviors.

Jealousy & cruelty I abhor

Qaulities of good character & humility, I adore!

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[ EVERY GRIM END IS MERELY A BEGINNING TO ANOTHER VAST JOURNEY OF DISCOVERY ]

In the oceans – through the waves 🌊 a figurative sailer ⛵ , surfer 🏄 & swimmer 🏊

Eager to unearth new treasures

Planter & gardener with green fingers 🌹🌱🌿🌸🌺🌷.

Chronic illness endurer 💪💊💉♿

When, to my own body I became a foreign invader

Since these past 2 years

I am a different viewer

Of the world which has become the canvas of a broader picture.

Currently a rare disease warrior dealing with congestive heart failure 📈📉

Requiring upright sleeping postures

Climb mount everest by having a shower 🚿

Albeit, it definitely makes one feel nicer.

People say: You look fit as a fiddler

Most Drs assume: she’s a faker

Alas!!! If only they could see; Internally my body wreaks havoc to 1 of an only type complicated disaster.

Beware ⚠

For me the simple pleasure of laughter is a hazardous danger

An angina trigger

Also causes me to gasp for air, heart beating faster, blood pressure dropping lower, finally fainting to the floor

Situations of extreme excitement or anger are not in my favor

But the weight of these challenges will not make me a permanent moper 😔

They are growth providers

When the attitude of gratitude is a determining & driving factor.

Beauty is scattered everywhere

Sometimes & some days it requires a search longer & harder.

Respiratory failure & partial heart attack survivor 🏥

Oxygen dependant leashed by a nasal cannula.

Rising & shining no matter the weather

Focusing on all that makes life brighter

Heartfelt writer 📘📗✍

Calligraphy artist in the maker with a god sent teacher ✒📃

An avid_ink_slinger.

Future worrier? I’d not be, rather

Placing complete trust & reliance in the mightiest of powers

Letting the sparkle of faith shimmer 🌟

Coerced into a souldier

Without a fully equipped team of drs I learnt to become my own savior

With the advice provided by senior figures

Who have become my medical guiders.

From every encounter i am aided to build higher.

Easier said than done, don’t care about the deserters

Never give up with the extended assistance of caregivers & supporters

Those rare & true souls who stick at our sides through thick & thin, are keeper’s

They care to recognize & gain an understanding of our conditions making these trials easier.

Oh Lord! Please shower upon them your choicest favors

For their selfless renders.

Become menders & lenders to one another’s shatters

Kindness amplifys the universe wider

An asset to the doer not only the reciever.

Stay far! Criticisers & judgers

We ain’t in need of unsolicited dictator’s.

My weapons are prayers

Effective hurdle killers 🔫

Don’t underestimate its power.

Amidst this combat there is no breather

But our inner core carries superpowers to continuing until whenever.

Lost near & dear loved ones? A seperation very bitter…

Let the tears stream in rivers

And rejoice knowing, In lofty heavens will we reunite again together.

Oh sad one! When the pain lingers deeper

Remember! It is a fleeting timer

Nothing remains forever

Besides majestic rewards in an eternal life yet to come, of which the mind cannot even wonder

Therein we will be pampered with unlimited measure

For this goal I desirously labour & pray to become a successful winner!!

A dreamer & striver to meet who should be my first lover prior to all others.

To him there is no matcher

May he accept my broken efforts & forgive my errors

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[ FIGHTER ]

Is my logo

Above the high & low tides that flow,

I shall row 🚣

You may see me drown or sink during weak moments, but quitting?? No!

Leaving the past where it belongs, moving ahead, focusing on the present; always go.

Upon which shore shall I finally land? Not one of us know

Though, seeds of goodness and awareness i will continuously sow

Until the endmost…….

May our footsteps keep the earth aglow

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