52 ~ Indormitable ~

A long overdue post.

I considered forming phrases along these lines in 2017 prior to beginning the blog but could not find appropriate words to express these particular feelings..

Now, after past & current experiences,

Witnessing others in similar boats who are landing in a mess when recieving inappropriate care from health systems,

Families enduring the loss of a loved one who ended his / her life due to being thrown like a ball – landing at 1 blank wall after another…

Recalling once, when showing a picture for proof, I was accused of taking it from the internet or making it up because “everything can be done” nowadays…

Yes, imaginary expertise too 😂😂

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My soul

Flowed………

Random thoughts

That float in our minds

During tedious times.

A reality shunned by society

And often, frowned upon;

For all those who suffer in silence

Afraid to voice their turbulance:

💭 How long do I carry on?

💭 Will I be left to fend lone until the end?

💭 Will I be left to die without this disease recognised?

💭 Why are people shamed when having low moments?

💭 As the sun radiates & rain gravitates… Likewise, do mans reactions towards tribulations rotate & duplicate.

Dearest fellow warriors:

Reassured, you are validated to experience thoughts alike these..

We’re human not iron.

Then again, even iron is changed for utilization by undergoing various processes of construction.

If our bodies are continously encountering cycles & phases of pain etc, people should not expect a persons mood to be in an only 1 positive mode.

As much as I advocate focusing on the brighter sides

Please remember!!

Its okay to bend

Its okay to break

“Its okay to not always be okay”

And it’s perfectly fine not to say: “I’m ok” when feeling otherwise.

I re-etirate;

Allow yourself to experience these emotions

They are from among the tools which enable healing.

Matters not, what your story consists of

Experiencing a high or low?

Positive or negative?

This platform is yours

To reinforce moral support

I appeal, please don’t be shy to reach out

I am always here to “listen” to the best of my ability

My conditions should not make you hold back from “being you”.

(Very considerate not wanting to trouble or burden, but speaking your feelings are neither of both. I’m gladdened to be of some service)

Anything that’s human is mentionable, & anything that is mentioned can be more manageable. When we talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, & less scary.

– Fred Rogers.

Posted by GoodTherapy.org

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Kindly take note, we do not generalize / paint all with 1 brush.

[ ADDRESSED ON BEHALF OF UNDIAGNOSED PATIENTS TO DOCTOR’S – CERTAIN EXCEPTIONS ]

With all due respect

I echo these sentiments.

We know for sure

You do not possess a cure.

But we do not seek anything more.

Besides recognition

And identification

Of grappling afflictions

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It is a norm, our words

Are only heard

By the outward ear

Make way to the brain?

Deeper – ears of the soul?

Nay!

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O medical personnel

Being invisible

Makes the spirit indormitable.

O drs who are unaware

Of unfeigned conditions deemed rare

I do not care.

Though, an enquiry justified to pose:

How would you fare?

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On the day of compensation

When it will be time to be questioned

Regarding your duty being unfulfilled.

The Almighty will say:

Knowledge entrusted

With which you betrayed?!

My servant was ill, you had the abilities, yet, did not reach out to help him / her?

Dig further for sufficient answers.

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We stand alone

And build empires on our own.

With faith, facing this war

Striving to become stalwarts.

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Deserted by people from whom we should be recieving assistance...

Withstanding

Insulting comments

And hurtful statements

Hurled untroubled…

I have, 1 above

“By the forenoon

And the night when it darkens

You Lord has neither forsaken you nor hates you”

Fixating my gaze solely on him

“Seeking aid with patience & prayer”

Which will be accepted sooner or later.

Either of the 2 my lord knows is better.

– Partially undiagnosed soldier.

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There are hardships that you never speak about but that doesn’t mean they didn’t happen. There are tears left unaccounted for, there are years you have spent trying to fix something what is broken. When something is meant for you, by the will of God it will always be for you. But when something is not meant for you, god will show you many different signs. Signs that will show what isn’t good. Every little thing happens for a reason & your explanation will come soon.

– herblackcanvas

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