55 ~ Spoonie Biscotti ~

What happens if you do kitchen work with your Illnesses?

Does the pain become too much?

Is it too exhausting?

Difficult in which way?

Can you describe?

Are the questions I’m often confronted with.

Prior to finding pain relief (dollarom & cannabis oil blend related in chapter 12) the pain was definitely a limiting factor, now it is being managed (All praises to my Lord) ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

Small fiber sensory polyneuropathy does not involve 1 type of pain so prior to these meds it was disabling.

Once on medication – thinking I’d be capable of adopting a life with more normalcy – short lived joy – heart failure set in at the same time.

Though, I managed making short & easy recipes.


Eventually congestive heart failure & Prinzmetal – microvascular angina took over.

Cooking is not simply “exhausting“,

Like I always state; packaged with any “less than ordinary task”

Are a host of ongoing symptoms, which, if not ‘obeyed’, result in disastrous consequences.

If not rested once angina is triggered, I’m at high risk of a heart attack (myocardial infarction).

Spoonie biscotti – A glimpse into 1 day of baking whilst living with insufficient battery life / measuring the task of baking with spoons – falling majorly short as some people understand this analogy…

I purchased this book (from a cousin, all thanks to her for informing me about it) ๐Ÿ˜Š

Titled Breads & Pastries by Hafsa Kasak +-3 months prior to everything changing. A wonderful book ๐Ÿฉ๐Ÿช & if you don’t have one already, think of investing in one ๐Ÿ˜‰. No one asked me to advertise / promote, doing so out of my own free will because I’ve used it a lot & up to date, mom & sisters continue using it.

Every tried recipe has never flopped & been thoroughly enjoyed by everyone who tasted from the contents.

Coconut ring, caramel cinnabons, pancake varieties, feather light rolls, definitely not forgetting this yummy coconut biscotti recipe which I made once after purchasing the book.

The image below dates back to March 2016 ๐Ÿ‘‡

Divine to dip in a cup of tea / coffee or even a munchy crunchy snack.

3 months ago, craving for it, mom said she’d make but I refused her offer saying I wanted to do it all by myself.

Clever much ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

Well, it was after 2 entire years so this day had to be recorded as an anecdote in my journal!

1 batch of biscotti took approximately 7 hours ๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

Reversing the gears back to

[ MARCH 2018 ]

Today ! Baking & I had some well deserved, good bonding time โ˜•๐Ÿช ๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ˜‚

Been wanting to make coconut biscotti “by myself” from ages but insufficient ๐Ÿ”‹ life

Little achievements tally a count ๐Ÿ˜€๐Ÿ˜€

Let me take y’all through a tour of the athletic work achieved:

[STEP 1]

Mom took out the ingredients, put them on the table, I took a few small things out like spoons, dish, sieve etc.

[STEP 2]

Sat on the chair, mixed flour & baking powder.

Beat eggs with sugar. Added Vanilla essence & pinch of salt.

[STEP 3]

When fluffed up, I hand mixed the flour in, this particular recipe does not call for machine mixing. But as the dough got heavier, circling motions became difficult – I couldn’t turn the spoon due to BREATHLESSNESS & ANGINA wanting to be included in the fun.

Oh, they scream if excluded.

[STEP 4]

Mom stirred it finish. Then I needed to rest bearing in mind no other task was performed prior to beginning. Covered it with a cloth & layed on the bed for a while.

[STEP 5]

Dad came on the scene to help whilst mom cooked supper, took out the tray, mat & coconut oil bcause my breathing had not yet settled but head set on getting this done lol.

Coconut oil moulded the 2 logs well.

*Substituted for normal oil.

[STEP 6]

Mom placed the tray in the oven to bake.

[STEP 7]

Once done, I took it out.

Then left to cool.

Completely drained of battery life.

Went to sleep.

Immediately in dream land ๐Ÿ˜ด๐Ÿ˜ด๐Ÿ˜ด

[STEP 8]

Mom put the logs in the fridge & sliced it early the next morning.

What a lonnnnnnnng sequence making only 1 little batch of coconut biscotti ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†

๐Ÿ“ˆ๐Ÿ“‰ Sauntering a life of multiple heart diseases

Heyy!! By the way – healthy recipe ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

With the finest quality ingredients used:

๐Ÿช Unbleached stone ground flour

๐Ÿช Farm eggs

๐Ÿช Brown treacle sugar (grounded)

๐Ÿช Homemade baking powder

๐Ÿช Pure vanilla extract

๐Ÿช Pinches of Himalayan salt.

๐Ÿช Coconut is well, just coconut. Lol.

Agrees with my gastroparesis because it’s really light on the digestive system – no butter (butter filled biscuits & rich cakes nauseate me)


Hope that gives an idea…

Cooking a complete meal is not listed among my capabilities with the exception of someone assisting by doing the up, down walking, fetching ingredients, cutlery, stirring etc.

I manage little handwork whilst sitting at the kitchen table (cpap on); cutting mushrooms on a board etc for short time spans… Cannot hold an arm upwards longer than a few minutes.

Recently realized that writing also impacts my ๐Ÿ’™ more than thought but will never give up, continouing to do all these little things with respiratory ally’s because every bit of pay back time holds worth ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

Whilst writing, rules are;

๐Ÿ’  No bending the chest halfway over

๐Ÿ’  Maintain a complete upright position so as not to trigger angina & neck muscle spasms = migraines.

To attain success in any field of life, 2 P’S are necessary:

๐ŸŽ“ Patience

๐Ÿ‘‘ Perseverance


๐ŸŒน Failure is also essential for flourishing.

A heart

Beating fast,

Drumming in my ears

Heralding fainting fears,

No feelings of anxiousness

Merely, frequent occurences,

These waves appear bleak

But do not make aspirations weak,

As long as reliance above is at peak.

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