77 ~ Presents from heaven ~

Your blog has been linked to…..

https://lifewithanillness.com/2018/05/14/mystery-blogger-award-nomination/

Approve?

Forehead creasing into many wrinkles as I open the link & read…

Suprise, surprise!

Bingo 👏👏👏

https://kayborninmay.wordpress.com/2018/05/16/57-bloom-within-gloom/

On the 16th of May, this dearest blogger nominated me to be among her list of awards.

A beautiful birthday gift 💞

Im extremely honored & taken aback at her most kind gesture.

Mackenzies blog is among the first few i stumbled across during the onset of my blogging journey whilst searching for some “chronical – non fictional” good reads with informative & motivating content.

*laugh* yes I just added a new word to my dictionary.

Her posts are diverse. She publishes lots of beneficial tips. Previously I shared a link pertaining to migraine remedies where many people gave their input.

She also posts motivation on various days of the week.. Sometimes just few words for the day can change a lot.

“One qoute or message always has the power to enliven a day & make somber moments fade away”

– Kay.

Ok now let me put you out of the merciless suspense from 2 months back & get onto the fun.

What is the Mystery Blogger Award all about?

“This is an award for amazing bloggers with indigenous posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates.

They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get.

This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging and they do it with so much love and passion.”

– Okoto Enigma

Rules

• Thank whoever nominated you and include link to their blog

• Tell your readers 3 things about yourself

• Answer the questions from the person who nominated you

• Nominate 10-20 bloggers you feel deserve the award

• Ask your nominees 5 questions of your choice with one weird or funny one

• Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog

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Writing for us is no competitive game. We only have 1 aim, i.e to help carve 1 anothers armour.

To a far away blogger by the name of MacKenzie

Sincerest gratitude for choosing me to be among your “army”

As you shone rays of sun on a gnawingly cold day

May abundance of light occupy your tunnel, casting worries at bay

[ THREE THINGS ABOUT MYSELF]

Below is a previous post published where I encapsulated a lot about me

https://kayborninmay.wordpress.com/2018/04/02/43-greater-schemes/

So instead of repeating, here I’ll mention 3 aspects that havent been discussed before;

1) “I have a passion for being human”.

We are human, so what does that mean you may ask?

Well, theres ample hatred, cruelty & injustice meted out daily… The deeds of some humans stoop even lower than the normal instinct of animals – This I state based on witnessing certain accounts of stants pulled on chronically ill people.

For some it’s not astonishing, yet others might get a heart attack hearing what goes on “behind the scenes”. What is portrayed externally is a chapter of superficiality.

I try my utmost best to live by an Arabic proverb:

“Do not hurt anyone, every heart has already had enough”

2) I was a very talkative person until speech gradually took a back seat.

Instead of being snatched away completely at 1 go, Congestive Heart Failure along with its companions became dwellers in stages. Once again the Almightys mercy encompassed this training process.

Not being able to talk, laugh & participate in a normal conversation was 1 of the largest bullets shot.

However, in the beginning of this journey before CHF & the rest followed like a string with more beads being added on, my youngest brother gifted me 1 jewel;

“The quieter you remain, the more an understanding of things will open up. Excessive talking beyond moderation does not give the mind time & space to think“

Apt!!!

When sentences meant first counting few words to see how much breath is required to release…

As I plunged headlong towards the bottom… The entire view began changing;

The ocean you see, is no longer the one I see

The ocean I saw in the beginning, is now longer the ocean I see now

The depths in which I “drown” is no longer daunting

Those very same depths are allowing me to explore…

Through this stage of progression a major lesson was taught;

Whilst I tried clutching onto a stone, priceless gems were forthcoming…

If this is now, then what hasn’t been stored in the real life??? (of which I am definitely undeserving but earnestly pray for)

I am not being “robbed” of anything.

After being bestowed with the ability of breaking free from the manacles of “what was in the past” & “what should be currently”

I realised that every challenge relays messages, only deciphered when my mind & soul united in receptivity to “what is now”

(A post pertaining to the topic of robbed will follow God willing)

3) Upon hearing & witnessing many incidents tragically unfold, a certain prayer of mines fervently flew up to the heavens..

Little did I know

Never in my wildest thoughts

Or expectations

Had I imagined which doors would open & what would be sent flying down…

I just asked for something

I don’t request how or add lengthy details..

“However, it was accepted as the greatest of all kings felt befitting”

Introspecting at a latter period after being diagnosed.. I am clearly being shown – these illnesses became an answer to that prayer……

“Presents from heaven”

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[ ANSWERS TO MACKENZIES QUESTIONS ]

1) Who do you look upto the most?

Speaking in terms of the recent era, my role model was, is & will continue to be moms mom – who passed on in 2016. Those who read chapter 10 & knew her well will understand why.

She fought CHF with such valor

She lead by action, words there from, engraved, never to be erased.

Her faith radiated alike the full moon during the darkest periods of ill health where she could have chosen to be stuck in gloom.

In the present era – I’m unable to pinpoint at 1 particular person as there are a collective handful of individuals from whom i draw multiple folds of inspiration.

Past teachers & many mentors.

2) What is your all time favorite food?

This is a hard question having gastroparesis.

My past favorite food was anything related to macaroni cheese, pasta, lasagne etc. It’s not the the most wholesome choice lol.

Sometimes I crave to eat foods that will eventually causes havoc, severe spastic twists & crippling pain but ironic to note that from being a cooking fanatic I kinda lost that “food desire” where if anyone asks what do you “liss” for?

No answer comes to mind because I enjoy / make do with whatever comes my way easy to slip down, no vast array of options..

And there are days where my vagus nerve decides to be moody settling for nothing less than an empty stomach.

Few sips of water is an accomplishment.

3) If you had 1 million dollars how would you spend it?

Upon the destitute. Those without proper shelter, clothing, food, clean water. Someone who struggles spending a R50 daily cab fee to see their ill child in hospital. People living in improvised conditions.

Basically to materialise their dreams of attaining basic necessities.

How to better life for the under priveledged always topped the list.

This desire then sunk in deeper during my stay & follow ups in a government hospital.

A topic determined to address when hospital chronicles terminate, God willing.

We spend anyhow…

Whereas a R10 in their hands is counted & spent sparingly.

4) Cats or dogs?

Cats anytime. Adore em. I definitely would have kept a cat as a pet if my mom didn’t have a weird kind of phobia for them. Many family members also have allergies.

5) What is 1 goal you hope to accomplish this year?

On the lighter side: A Dr / team of professionals who will take care of my life & health seriously. *laugh*

On the realistic side… Although there are many goals in mind, I don’t make them hard fisted targets because that creates unneeded pressure…

What is it? A question I’d politely prefer answering privately..

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I now nominate……