19/08/2021 Three days pass by and I go about my everyday routine feeling happier, lighter and very much relieved that I blocked out all opposing opinions and did not rush into surgery. None of the postoperative infusions were set in order so how would the port have worked out favorably?! No sense leaping into operation … Continue reading 297 ~ Relief after grief ~
Category: Drip dramas
296 ~ Inflow of support ~
Once I muster up courage and feel ready to inform close people regarding the decision as well as those who follow my chronicles on Instagram, I emphasize the point of having to postpone the procedure as no easy decision and request followers to kindly respect since it is a visceral conviction. Whoever wants to chat … Continue reading 296 ~ Inflow of support ~
295 ~ Strength and solace ~
16/08/2021 Subconscious thoughts of discussions involving infirmary beds, fluorescent lights and aseptic odors intrude the dreams of a restless three hour sleep and my leaden eyelids slowly open to fajr adhaan resounding via the masjid reciever. As soon as fajr concludes; Dad being the senior guardian calls Dr Tawriq to affirm my decision. Contrary to … Continue reading 295 ~ Strength and solace ~
294 ~ Following my intuition ~
15/08/2021 At the break of dawn I awaken to a flashing image that repeatedly makes me see myself on that Tuesday morning slowly walking out of our home towards the car with trepidation, glancing back at a teary-eyed mum and bidding her farewell almost as if to say I don't know if or in what … Continue reading 294 ~ Following my intuition ~
293 ~ Gripped by apprehension ~
14/08/2021 The apprehension in my heart weighs heavier with each prayer of istikharah and my search for an after theater antiseptic observation space becomes futile. “You can't expect hospitals to oblige to your requests because reverse barrier nursing or a reserved room is probably only suited for patients in the US. Forget about it happening … Continue reading 293 ~ Gripped by apprehension ~
292 ~ Meeting the vascular surgeon ~
12/08/2021 10:45 Dr Tawriq walks in to the vascular clinic and takes me in first as per profs referral and our meeting begins with a condensed summary of my history to the point of a need for IV fluids. He listens keenly and asks relative questions pertaining to Gastroparesis. The port is quite easy to … Continue reading 292 ~ Meeting the vascular surgeon ~
291 ~ Assurance from Allah ~
While thoughts of the consult replay I prepare my mind for a seemingly fast life changing procedure, an idea flashed of searching for a support group on Facebook whereby I can equip myself ahead of time and learn from other patients internationally. When my membership is approved, I log into the port-a-cath group and the … Continue reading 291 ~ Assurance from Allah ~
290 ~ An important appointment ~
10/08/2021 9:30 AM An early start to an important day with some butterflies fluttering away inside my tummy although less as compared to a first time meeting. Post-appointment nerves are part of every single consult more so since today was scheduled for a consequential decision. As always, I perform two rakaats Salaat-ul-Haajah before leaving home … Continue reading 290 ~ An important appointment ~
289 ~ Outstanding qualities ~
27/07/2021 Dr Aarif calls early morning to set an approximate time for the afternoon saying he wishes to provide assistance to the best of his capability... At 2:30 PM I am introduced to a hospitable and skilled nurse by the name of Janet or sister Janet as nurses are usually addressed. Dr Aarif: Sister Janet … Continue reading 289 ~ Outstanding qualities ~
288 ~ A replacement arrives ~
26/07/2021 Gusts of nippy wind blow sand adrift into the sunlit sky and I sit in limbo mode under its rays speculating on the five day overturn. How did Salmaans serious display of concern twist into a total heedless approach My befuddled brain fraught with desolation and disappointment scrambles for closure, yet a second voice … Continue reading 288 ~ A replacement arrives ~
Swimming Through The Waves 