293 ~ Gripped by apprehension ~

14/08/2021 The apprehension in my heart weighs heavier with each prayer of istikharah and my search for an after theater antiseptic observation space becomes futile. “You can’t expect hospitals to oblige to your requests because reverse barrier nursing or a reserved room is probably only suited for patients in the US. Forget about it happening…

292 ~ Meeting the vascular surgeon ~

12/08/2021 10:45 Dr Tawriq walks in to the vascular clinic and takes me in first as per profs referral and our meeting begins with a condensed summary of my history to the point of a need for IV fluids. He listens keenly and asks relative questions pertaining to Gastroparesis. The port is quite easy to…

291 ~ Assurance from Allah ~

While thoughts of the consult replay I prepare my mind for a seemingly fast life changing procedure, an idea flashed of searching for a support group on Facebook whereby I can equip myself ahead of time and learn from other patients internationally. When my membership is approved, I log into the port-a-cath group and the…

290 ~ An important appointment ~

10/08/2021 9:30 AM An early start to an important day with some butterflies fluttering away inside my tummy although less as compared to a first time meeting. Post-appointment nerves are part of every single consult more so since today was scheduled for a consequential decision. As always, I perform two rakaats Salaat-ul-Haajah before leaving home…

289 ~ Outstanding qualities ~

27/07/2021 Dr Aarif calls early morning to set an approximate time for the afternoon saying he wishes to provide assistance to the best of his capability… At 2:30 PM I am introduced to a hospitable and skilled nurse by the name of Janet or sister Janet as nurses are usually addressed. Dr Aarif: Sister Janet…

288 ~ A replacement arrives ~

26/07/2021 Gusts of nippy wind blow sand adrift into the sunlit sky and I sit in limbo mode under its rays speculating on the five day overturn. How did Salmaans serious display of concern twist into a total heedless approach My befuddled brain fraught with desolation and disappointment scrambles for closure, yet a second voice…

287 ~ My Port-A-Cath survey ~

Taking me by total surprise; almost every response came forth in the affirmative towards a Port-A-Cath. The permacath, hickmann and PICC lines are very different, prone to repeated life-threatening infection and are therefore not recommended by all autonomic specialists. Exceptions are made for specific cases as you might see from some of our friends /…

286 ~ Signs from above ~

25/07/2021 The euphoria of having someone attend to my infusions was short-lived and now I could not escape the harsh reality of being ignored and stranded. A deep sigh of defeat Collapsed veins. Blown veins. Overused veins. Fragile veins What’s next in the episode of drip dramas 😂🤭 I chuckle to myself making light out…

285 ~ Special people ~

While I demystify this short yet taxing string of events, occasionally my mind wanders…Does the poem which took several weeks to compose still carry any meaningful value… Originally drafted on 14/03/2021 then sent for printing to be framed and gifted along with personalized paramedic apparel. However some errors occcured in process of the print so…

284 ~ Every patients plea ~

24/07/2021 Throughout the day I wait patiently and hopefully half dreading a second disappearance when night covers over the sky and again there is no confirmation or sign of Salmaan. He usually comes towards the evenings either after Maghrib or Ishaa salaah so once the clock struck 9 PM any thought of his arrival became…