14/08/2021 The apprehension in my heart weighs heavier with each prayer of istikharah and my search for an after theater antiseptic observation space becomes futile. “You can't expect hospitals to oblige to your requests because reverse barrier nursing or a reserved room is probably only suited for patients in the US. Forget about it happening … Continue reading 293 ~ Gripped by apprehension ~

12/08/2021 10:45 Dr Tawriq walks in to the vascular clinic and takes me in first as per profs referral and our meeting begins with a condensed summary of my history to the point of a need for IV fluids. He listens keenly and asks relative questions pertaining to Gastroparesis. The port is quite easy to … Continue reading 292 ~ Meeting the vascular surgeon ~

While thoughts of the consult replay I prepare my mind for a seemingly fast life changing procedure, an idea flashed of searching for a support group on Facebook whereby I can equip myself ahead of time and learn from other patients internationally. When my membership is approved, I log into the port-a-cath group and the … Continue reading 291 ~ Assurance from Allah ~

10/08/2021 9:30 AM An early start to an important day with some butterflies fluttering away inside my tummy although less as compared to a first time meeting. Post-appointment nerves are part of every single consult more so since today was scheduled for a consequential decision. As always, I perform two rakaats Salaat-ul-Haajah before leaving home … Continue reading 290 ~ An important appointment ~

Taking me by total surprise; almost every response came forth in the affirmative towards a Port-A-Cath. The permacath, hickmann and PICC lines are very different, prone to repeated life-threatening infection and are therefore not recommended by all autonomic specialists. Exceptions are made for specific cases as you might see from some of our friends / … Continue reading 287 ~ My Port-A-Cath survey ~

25/07/2021 The euphoria of having someone attend to my infusions was short-lived and now I could not escape the harsh reality of being ignored and stranded. A deep sigh of defeat Collapsed veins. Blown veins. Overused veins. Fragile veins What's next in the episode of drip dramas 😂🤭 I chuckle to myself making light out … Continue reading 286 ~ Signs from above ~

24/07/2021 Throughout the day I wait patiently and hopefully half dreading a second disappearance when night covers over the sky and again there is no confirmation or sign of Salmaan. He usually comes towards the evenings either after Maghrib or Ishaa salaah so once the clock struck 9 PM any thought of his arrival became … Continue reading 284 ~ Every patients plea ~

23/06/2021 At 7:18 AM I recieve the following response Paramedic Salmaan: Salaam👏Jee Alhamdulilah all is goodJazakallah so much for the thoughtfulness and concern 👏 please make us maaf. Forgive us for not returning yesterday, after qurbani I needed to attend a fixed wing flight brought a patient in from CPT which I was rostered for … Continue reading 283 ~ Anticipation ~