Specially dedicated to a younnnng boy by the name of Salmaan whos parents would make an effort to go out of their way for me from the beginning of my journey.
His mom would often stop by & drop off a bunch of flowers along her daily rounds out on the road.
A week ago she phoned to relay the saddening news of his diagnosis & I could not believe my ears. My heart took a frantic leap.
I wanted to tell them something, tell him something, but what???
What do you tell a 13 year old who had to be given half a litre +- blood? Who’s heart rate flew up to 150 due to pain? & is being given morphine to manage..
“The sight of Salmaan laying curled & frumpled up in a fetal position was so breaking”.
Eventually I said, since him & I are on the patient ends, I can muster up courage to say a few words.
When you feel someone’s pain, the words automatically flow without a search.
To his parents I cannot, but send abundant prayers their way, & of course they can relate to my parents being on the caretaker end.
Here’s a summarized version for readers to understand his condition:
《 ULCERATIVE COLITIS 》
A chronic inflammatory bowel disease that causes long lasting inflammation & ulcers (sores) on your digestive tract.
NO! IT IS NOT THE SAME AS THE COMMON ULCER WE EXPERIENCE FROM TIME. TO. TIME.
UC affects the innermost lining of your large intestine (colon) and rectum.
Types vary from mild to severe. Treatments are performed accordingly. Abstain from telling a patient the worst cases. Instead, provide them with encouragement & hope they will still be able to live a life, not just survive.
All cases are not the same.
Lab tests & imaging required for diagnosis.
Symptoms: Usually develop over time, not always sudden.
Rectal bleeding, bloody diarrhea, abdominal cramps & pain.
Pain types: They also experience pain in the abdomen, rectum or joints.
It can occur intermittently or continuous.
Gastrointestinal issues: bloating, constipation, inability to empty bowels, leaking of stool or an urgent need to defecate.
Whole body: Anemia, fatigue, fever or loss of appetite.
Also common: Cramping, scarring within the bile ducts & weight loss.
For those who are perfectly healthy without any issue, I’d say 1 sentence:
“Blood donators are life saviors.”
However, please remember, a person should first undergo a check to determine if everything is in order to donate.
He is a unique child. We are not related nor acquainted via the institution I taught at. During examination periods I’d get sent for invigilation to other classes & a familiarity would be created with students besides my own.
At that point he was not even in the institution. Yet, he’d sincerely inquire about my well being after falling ill.
For others it may appear on a high level, but for an intelligent minded boy.. I’m quite sure he will understand the meaning behind my message.
I fondly recall you visiting with a cute smile
Always asking my mom & brother how am I?
Suddenly your world spun
There was & is no where to run
Only above into the arms of one
Who sees your entire being strapped by solid reigns
Seizing you tight into a realm of crippling pain.
At the tender age of 13 years
Pierced by an illness that sears
Your body screams ouw!
Why did this happen now?
You might also wonder how?!
Your heart begins to pound
Excessive bleeding bowls you down
Had you shrieked a shrilling sound
Nightmares would make listener’s drown.
Temporarily life has stopped
School and hobbies dropped
You’re at a complete standstill
Being grinded through the mill.
Medication makes you dazed
But your ranks are being raised
Towards such a lofty extent
Our minds cannot extend.
Its okay to feel lost
And say this is all a lot.
In the beginning this journey is so confusing & overwhelming
You will hear or read this & perhaps think, what is she talking?
If we are promised rewards for the prick of a thorn
How much more you’re earning, from dusk to dawn
By oath, you are so dear unto your lord
He chose you to lay in a high care ward
Placed in your hands a huge sword
To thrust back with determined force
To keep you immaculately pure
& keep your ticket to paradise secure.
Enjoyment of this world is but, a limited sample
Patience moulds the desired & unparalled original.
Our illnesses are different
Though, I say from experience,
Soon the clouds will clear
Rainbows will appear
It might seem too long
Or I’m chanting a silly song.
The current may not settle now
Time for it to do so, let us allow
Whilst we bow down frayed
Difficulties certainly pay
Soon the sun will flash its rays.
1400 years ago in the preceded era
A celebrity you were named after
Our prophet (May the choicest of salutations be upon him) praised his worth
With the following admirable words
“If faith was at the Thurayya star
He would’ve reached that far”
Considered to be among the prophets esteemed family
The same noble & exemplary personality
Conquered battles with his strategic faculties
In the metaphorical sense
Your battle has become dense
The suffering totally immense
Faith will get a couple of dents
But akin to his, it will revamp
You’ll be given strength
To advance without relent.
You are not & this is not a burden entrusted
Unto the Almighty you are most beloved.
May the brave, mischievous salmaan
Who conveyed to me plenty salaam
Be wrapped in the solace of Ar-Rahmaan
And awarded the most befitting prizes of Al-Mannaan.
** Ar-Rahmaan is an Arabic term for “The most merciful”
** Al-Mannaan is an Arabic term for “The benefactor”
Both from among the 99 beautiful names of the Almighty 💝💖
I fall short of expressing gratitude to the Almighty & my mentors who have taught me the book titled صور من حياة الصحابة, from which the 2 excerpts of Salmaan Al Faarsiy’s life (may the Almighty be pleased with him) continously rang in my head.
Soaking & reminiscing through these illuminating chapters of faith, courage, resilience & sublime characteristics of a selfless nation has rejuvenated & empowered my entire battle.
Regarding the Thurayya star 🌟 I’m not going into detailed explanations. Below is an image mentioning briefly & 2 links attached for those who wish to read in depth.